Ready for…Something

After another difficult week at work, the weekend has finally arrived.  I slept late today–something my body has been craving–but now I am exhausted again.  As is has turned out, I am spending today and tomorrow almost completely alone.  I planned to visit home, but had to change my plans due to a “date” with the cable guy this afternoon. 

I want to know where my friends are.  I am 22 years old, and I suddenly find myself completely alone in a big city with absolutely nothing to do except unpack boxes and go to Home Depot.  There are no shortage of interesting places here, and yet I cannot find the motivation, or the company, that I need to venture out of this apartment.  How do I make friends?  All I do is work and ride the bus and go to the grocery.  I’ve made a neighborhood friend, and we’ve actually gone to the farmer’s market together and kept each other company on the bus.  But aside from that, I have no consistent friendship to lean on.  Where is the buddy I can call everyday to go eat or to talk about TV or to shop?  I’m on no one’s “list;” in no one’s clique.

Basically, I’m lonely.  The Boyfriend called today.  He’s having a wonderful time with his friends: tailgaiting, laughing, hanging out.  He has so many, and I can’t help but be jealous.  Everyone I know lives miles and miles away, and I’m too stupid and depressed to go meet new people.  I like to stay at home and get my apartment settled.  Sometimes I’d rather not go out.  But you know, today I needed someone, or something.  And I had nothing.